Title Quote by Mohit Kaushik
Lissa has been on my mind a lot lately. I was going through some craft supplies recently, and I found items she had sent me. It didn't reduce me to tears, but I felt this hollow melancholy and aching sadness. It will never make sense to me that she was taken so soon.
When I was growing up, there was a piece of jewelry that was popular with girls who were best friends. It was a heart upon which was inscribed "Best Friends," and it split in two so each person could wear one half. Lissa and I never shared a pendant like this but even so, when she died, I felt as though the other half of that heart was irretrievably lost. It was destined to always be broken in two and fractured, just like my life.
I refuse to stop speaking her name - to the point that people might get annoyed with me for repeating myself. David Eagleman said, “There are three deaths. The first is when the body ceases to function. The second is when the body is consigned to the grave. The third is that moment, sometime in the future, when your name is spoken for the last time.” While I live and have my mental faculties, I will keep her alive.
About eight years ago on Facebook, I had posted a question asking what people would want to have named for them. Lissa said a beach, preferably on the sea.
I haven't yet visited many beaches since we moved to Ireland. However, there is a beach in Bray called Back Strand that soothed me when I walked its sandy shore. It was secluded, away from the hustle and noise of the promenade. At least in my mind, it will forever be known by Melissa's name.
I wish she were here to sit on the sand and watch the waves. I wish I could've shown it to her.
